into the woods

"I went into the woods because I wished to live deliberately,
to front only the essential facts of life,
and see if I could not learn what it had to teach,
and not, when I came to die,
discover that I had not lived."

- Henry David Thoreau

Last weekend, I was feeling really odd, unbalanced. I mean, I had some cool experiences during that time, but by Sunday afternoon, I was in a bit of a rut... so, I decided to take a hike in the woods and found myself on the north end of the San Bruno Mountains walking down a paved fire trail. I didn't get very far. It was cold, but I went deep enough to find a bench underneath the eucalyptus trees to rest on and listen to the wind rustle the leaves.

It just so happen that this part of the regional park is a few blocks away from where my ex-love, Eli, lived. I would say that abode of his represented the better times in our relationship. A peace fell upon me as I layed there... and I found myself feeling grateful. Grateful for having loved and be loved the way we did. Madly. Intensely.

A fairytale come true it appeared to be. It didn't last and it ended quite bitterly, but I feel blessed for having the experience and grateful for the energy Eli put into the relationship... because out of all the relationships in my life, that was the one that defined me the most. My eyes are alot more open than they once were...