My heart's respite

It's been a long time since I have enjoyed one man's company in a long, long while... and I've never known such laughter in my life... and such ease in being around someone, so it's been quite a disappointment after a month of bliss to have such joy depart my life in such a sudden fashion.

What? I only get a month of honeymoon phase? Isn't that supposed to last longer? :P

I've been listening to sad songs lately. Songs about love and mostly songs about the unrequited type, and they've been making me mushy on the inside. I've heard these songs before, and I used to love singing them. However, now, the lyrics speak of a pain I have first hand knowledge of, and the thought that reoccurs in my mind is "I never wanted to really understand what this song was about. I never wanted to relate to what it was like to yearn for someone who just is hurting too much to be with you."

So, what have I learned from all this? That's the question I continually return to, and I've learned that someone who fits the description of the man of my dreams does exist, so that gives me hope that what I want isn't unreasonable and that I may find someone else. I've learned that I am a compassionate, loving person in action and not only in theory. Also, in exercising compassion and love, I have gained more faith in God, and that has been the greatest gift of all.