Just for this moment...

let me be irrational... let me exercise the mad romantic part of my soul that desires to be free just for this moment. Let me indulge in the fantasy that what we had for that brief time is something that could blossom into more. I hardly knew you at all, but for some unknown reason, you seemed more familiar than most that I have known for much longer. Okay... now that that's over, let's get real.

I've been fantasizing of flitting off to the other side of the country... mostly for the affection of a man. In all honestly, I could relocate. For the past 8 months, I have been preparing my life for a huge shift... My contract with Sapient ends in July. My housing situation is up in the air after July. I feel completely available to uproot and go in July. It could be this. It could be Santa Fe. It could be grad school. It could be optometry school. It could be a wide number of things.

It's exciting. It's unnerving. I'm on the brink of major change, and all that has to happen is that I need to make a decision and leap. But, it's me. I never do anything thoughtlessly (ahem, anymore). I'm a realist. I am a dreamer still, but my feet are on the floor. What do I want? Am I up for another challenge? Am I'm interested in placing myself out of my element? I do believe I am. Life is amazingly brilliant when you have choices.